GEMINI: HER AGNOSTIC LOVER

GEMINI: HER AGNOSTIC LOVER.

                              

  “…Be ye NOT unequally yoked together with unbelievers...” (2 Corinthians 6:14-15 KJV). 

 “…what fellowship hath righteousness with unrighteousness? And what communion hath light with darkness? And what concord hath Christ (the Word of TRUTH) with Belial (the DEVIL or Father of LIES)? Or what part hath he that believeth (depends upon God) with an infidel (one who doesn’t depend upon God)?” (2 Corinthians 6:14-15 KJV).

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Simon Toliver thought about Gemini and he didn’t want to give her up, but he didn’t have a choice. When he first met her she was down at a Jazz Festival in southern Maryland. She said she was renting a house right down the street from St Clement’s island museum.

She was short and petite with long, curly weaved hair. It looked nice on her. She had innocent, sweet looks with dimples and pretty light brown baby doll eyes. That first day she had on a royal blue tank top, sexy heels, and tight blue jeans that showed every single curve she had. He thought “...who wears heels, that high, to an outside concert...” Gemmy did.

She was alone and she didn’t have on a wedding ring on. He ran into her a couple of times at the food vendors and once they made eye contact they flirted, ridiculously, during the whole concert. During intermission, he came over to talk to her.

They sat next to each other for the rest of the concert and then watched the fireworks together.  They exchanged numbers and made a date for the following morning. He picked her up and they drove further south to a seafood restaurant, on the water, for brunch.

They spent a pleasant day together. When he drove back to her house, she invited him in and they had a wild time together. She was an undercover “bad” girl, but it made him want to spent more time with her

She told him she travelled entirely too much and didn’t want to get anyone caught up in her life. That’s why she said she wasn’t in a serious relationship, because she didn’t have the time, but he told her he would take what he could get.

What he didn’t know is that Gemini rented a house everywhere she played and the furnished house she’d taken him too she was renting on a month by month basis. She’d only paid for two months.

Simon fell instantly for her. He showered her with gifts and lots of male attention. She wasn’t his typical one-night stand and after a short while he wanted to marry her.

He did become a little obsessed with her and she started seeing him less and less. That pissed him off, because it felt like rejection to him. It made him feel jealous and insecure and he wanted her more and more.

Once he followed her to BWI airport and she got on a plane to California like she said she was. He didn’t do it again, because his therapist told him “no stalking.”

He resisted the temptation to stalk her until his brother told him she had come into the clinic. David didn’t tell him why she’d come to see him, but his brother was an gynecologist. He knew Gemini had recently got her annuals because she told him. He listened to everything she said and he suspected she was pregnant.

Right afterwards she stopped calling him. When he went by the house he thought she lived in she was long gone. The lady said that Gemini Patterson had only rented it for two months.  He had asked about Gemmy Kennedy not Gemini Patterson. Simon researched until he found her.

He drove all the way up to Baltimore, to her church and there she was with Brad, her husband, in living color. He began to boil inside and if he had a gun he would have shot the place up. He wanted to ruin her life like she had just ruined his.

He resisted. The people, at the church, weren’t the blame. Brad Patterson wasn’t the blame. Her family wasn’t the blame. SHE WAS! She was a damn cheater and she had played with his emotions. Now she was safe in her little FAKE Christian world and had totally shut him out. It bought back "bad" childhood memories and he didn’t take the rejection well.

Simon was trying not to lose control. He noticed he was becoming a little hyperactive and was doing impulsive stuff.

He was having a hard time sleeping too, but his brother gave him some sleeping pills. They were helping a little.

His brother talked to him to warn him that he was eating too many sweets and smoking too much marijuana. Sometimes Simon had problems concentrating and focusing on the job at hand.

Simon was a brilliant businessman. He made ridiculous money on a internet business he started years before. As a result, he helped his brother open his own practice and bought his mother a new home in Upper Marlboro.

He had been doing so good with his mental health. He was taking his lithium and managing his Bi-polar really good until he found out about Gemmy's deceit.

He was only smoking marijuana, but he knew if he didn’t get himself under control he would start abusing other drugs too. That why David was trying to help him. He was worried about him taking his medication with recreational drugs. The two didn’t mix well.

Plus Simon didn’t want to go back to those dark days where he was harming himself and his family members.

There were too many days of depression where he couldn’t function in a healthy way. He used to lash out at every body and behave irrationally to the point it became destructive to himself and others.

He had enough of that negative life and he refused to go back. He promised David he would see his therapist. He asked David, a long time ago, to help him keep it together and  he did. His big brother always looked out for him and had his back. He loved his brother and respectfully listened to him.

Whenever David saw  bi-polar symptoms he always threw a hint by suggesting Simon go see his therapist immediately. Mad as he was at Gemmy he wasn’t going back to that craziness.

Thus, Simon saw his therapist, got back on track with his medicine, and continued to work on his new home down in St George’s Island.

Simon wanted to get married one day and have a family. His brother, David, was married and had four children already. He and his wife did have a set of triplets though. Their father was part of a set of triplets, so it ran in their family.

Simon wouldn’t show anyone his new house, while he was building it. They saw the blueprints for an eight thousand square foot home. He promised when it was finished he would have a house warming party and invite the whole family. He told David everything, but he wouldn’t tell him where his new house was located. He knew David had bought 12 acres of land somewhere on the Potomac.

Meanwhile, Simon stayed with his mother, in Upper Marlboro, by choice, so she wouldn’t be alone. But after meeting Gemmy, he wanted a place of his own. He was originally building it with her in mind. He still decided to use some of her ideals.

When he showed Gemmy the plans, she had some excellent ideas, and she was the only one who knew where it was located. She loved the water view too.

Simon saw her, last week, for the last time. He gave her the porcelain figurine she’d wanted and then they said their good-byes. He was determined, with his whole heart, to be dignified and not let his bi-polar problem interfere with his being mature about the break-up.

Simon was proud of himself. He put his best effort forward to handle it like a man. He was really hurt and it was hard not to feel some resentment about what Gemmy had done even after he forgave her. David swore he was not holding a grudge, and if he was, it wasn’t on purpose.

David and his therapist said holding grudges would prevent him for moving forward. So he proved to them he was moving on.

Simon started dating Sheila. She was pretty and had a decent personality. They went to dinner, museums, concerts, and on a couple of cruises together. Everything was fine until she accused him of talking about his ex, which was Gemmy, too much. She also said he was always comparing her to Gemmy and finally asked him did he still have feelings for her. He said. “...Hell no...”

Sheila didn’t believe Simon when he said he cared for her and was becoming serious about their relationship. She said he wasn’t really interested in her and if he was honest with himself, they had no chemistry.

Sheila told him he didn’t even introduce her as his woman, but simply as a friend. She said he didn’t hang out with her like someone who was really into her would. She constantly argued about the gifts Gemmy gave him during their time together. She said he hung onto those gifts too tight, which, to her, meant he was still holding onto his ex. When Simon refused to let them go, Sheila left him for good.

Simon didn’t blame her. Her constant nagging about Gemmy did frustrate him and he lost his temper really bad. He took advantage of Sheila’s issue and used it as an opportunity to lash out over what he was really upset about deep in his heart.

Maybe David and his therapist was right and he was only pretending to be fine about Gemmy. Every time Sheila would try to help him move forward it would set him off. It was becoming obvious to him, he still had some unresolved issues with Gemmy and he didn’t know what to do about them. 

He had NO WAY of controlling the resentment and bitterness growing, monstrous, in his heart.

Simon thought if he and Gemmy avoided each other, like they were doing, eventually it would get easier for him to move on. But what he couldn’t avoid is his FEELINGS about her having a husband, about what happened, about how it happened, about why it happened, and the deceit of it all.

He was feeling angry about it and it really was stopping him from moving forward. He really was holding a grudge. He wanted to do right, but he couldn't. He wanted to feel good about it,  but he didn't.

Every time he thought about Gemmy his thoughts were negative. He still wanted her to understand his side of things and what it was like to be used. She really did wrong him, and didn’t have a clue how hurt or angry she’d left him. It simply wasn’t fair.

His mother said he was becoming emotional detached from everyone, especially since he broke up with Gemmy. Now that Sheila was gone too, he didn’t go anywhere and was constantly canceling events and outings with his family and friends.

Eventually, he stopped talking to his mother, David, and his therapist about Gemmy. There is nothing they could say or do that would heal the wound Gemmy had left upon his heart. He was irritable about her and no matter how much human effort he put into forgiving her, it was turning into a lingering grudge. There was NOTHING good in his attitude about her.

Maybe he needed to talk to Gemmy one more time. Maybe if they could talk and work through what happened it would help him move forward, once and for all.

Simon Toliver wasn’t a Christian. If there is a “God” he didn’t believe any human being could really know him. He believed he existed somewhere, but nobody could really prove it. Simon started visiting Gemmy’s church.

Nothing had changed, in the so-called Christian church and he couldn’t believe Gemmy was caught in all the nonsense about a God that they didn't even know.  Obviously, she didn’t know, this God, either, or she wouldn’t have felt so comfortable with him.

At the core, Gemmy didn’t believe God existed either and she was lost in this religious world of make believe. She wanted him to rescue her.

He was going to help her, so he started gathering information on her. He flashed a lot of cash around places she frequented and got people to talking. He learned her schedule by heart.

Gemmy was his target and he was doing this for her too. His emotional health and overall well-being depended upon this risk he was about to take. He also believed Gemmy secretly wanted him to save her too!

He didn’t want revenge, but justice. He WAS pissed off and he DID have a hole in his heart, but he knew Gemmy did too. There was only one thing to do to help them both.

Losing Gemmy was festering in his heart making his thoughts negative and irrational, but if they resumed their relationship, in one way or another, it would bring him and her peace again

Simon drove north to Gambril. He looked in the backseat to make sure he bought everything he needed. He knew this was the day Gemmy got her nails done at Walmart. She would be alone. It was the perfect time to get his wife and bring her home with him.